As you may or may not know I am big into Jesus and I pray to him or God each day and I want to remain close to them. The other night I had a dream about Jesus on across. He was in silhouette on the cross and the sky was orange and there was 5 or 6 walls of orange fire between me and Jesus but he was on some land on cross that wasn't burning. I was there among the fire but I was safe because I wasn't on fire.
I had a feeling that I wanted to be right there with Jesus but I felt like there was nothing I can do. I have a relationship to Jesus and God and yes something is between us. Some people say that seeing Jesus in a dream is a call to salvation but I am already saved and from time to time I ask other people if they want to be saved too. I have no idea what this might mean since I am indeed saved. Or at least I believe that I am.
It is hard living my life for Jesus as a lot of times I find myself being selfish, inpatient, greedy, having thoughts of me doing bad things or even taking pleasure in these thoughts and I wonder if my life is pleasing to them. I got saved because I was worried about my spiritual eternity and with the help of a dear friend of mine Mary Kephart I accepted Jesus as my lord and savior. I chose water for this journal because Jesus said he would give you living waters and that those who got it would never be thirsty again. I was saved on October 28, 2013.
Sometimes I wonder if I really am a godly woman because although I want my life to be pleasing to God a lot of times I still lie, I do things I shouldn't do, watch, read, and say things I shouldn't and a lot of times I am disobey God and later on I ask for forgivness. I had no idea being a godly person was so hard when I first got saved but I am happy that I am saved none the less.
Jesus died on the cross for my sins and mine and I am so glad He did because if he didn't I would be doomed to parish for all eternity. God loved the world so much that he gave hos only son for us. I want my faith in him to grow stronger, I want to endure with him to the end and be saved. My want to keep my salvation forever and if anyone would like to accept Jesus as your lord and savior you can let me know. If not I can understand.